Dreams, Hope, And Love. 
All the things this world has tried to crush and pry away from me.
And today... it just may have succedded. 
At first, when he said it... i was shocked...
Then Hurt...
Then Pissed...
Then just crushed. 
I handed him the rings. Threw out the dress, the pictures the cards. 
i told him to move his shit. 
Now
there is numbness. which is the thing i hate the most.
I keep hoping to feel the hope that this is temporary.
I keep dreaming to wake up and see that this is another of my Nightmares.
I keep loving myself so maybe he will love me too. 
Once again i am filled with this emptiness...
All that i had hoped for... turned out to be false.
All that i had dreamed for.... turned out to be a nightmare.
All the love i had...... turned out to be unreturned.
Heartless..... Hopeless... Loveless and Lost in the darkness 
with no one to blame...But me.

with marshmallow heads of the KH cast!

Chocolate Sora
Blueberry Riku
Strawberry Kairi
Lime Goofy
Vanilla Donald

and now for a limited time you can collect all 26 keychains just like Sora collected during his adventures! And if you send in 300 box tops we'll send you your very own keyblade!

Kid 1: *attaches keychain to keyblade* "Nothing happens... what a rip off..."

Kid 2: I cut the roof of my mouth on this cereal...

Congratulations, Kristy! You have successfully completed the online CDA program!

Way to go! You have done an excellent job. You should be very proud of your achievement. I really appreciate all of your hard work and dedication to the courses!

You will be receiving your CDA-E transcripts and certificates in the mail soon.
Please contact me if you have any questions!

Kristy :)

Your Birthdate: October 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

more later I'm sure........

I got a PSP!!! Its like the most coolest thing ever. I'm glad Sony took advantage of actual wi fi... Now they just need to stop being afraid and slap a browser on there... ok I gotta go play it some more.. hehe Im ADDICTED :p

You know whats fun? Ripping old broken venitian blinds off the wall. LOL I'm a retard cause I saw how to get the vallace off but I couldn't find any parts where the track was screwed into the wall. So I undid the vallace and then just grabbed ahold of the remaining blinds and tugged. Sure enough a large crash proceeded, and the blinds lay on the floor around my feet. Good times i swear :pThen I realized the ones I bought would need to be drilled into the wall. I lack the drill. Good thing my dad said he would love to do it.. cause otherwise I'd hafta buy a drill. There was more to be said but I got side tracked, so i guess thats all for now

So comes the close of my first week as an independant apartment dweller. Its a lot diffrent than I expected, It seems my focus has diviated every so slightly. The early part of this week was extremely rough considering I measure success in task completed rather than partial task completed. I really wanted to call into work tuesday and wednesday, mostly because I had been unable to get a good nights sleep and I was emotionally having some issues. I'm still trying to adjust to living with Ronny. Its not that hes terrible to live with or anything.. we're just two very diffrent people.. And just as opposites attract theres also the compromise for that union. For the first time ever I have a dishwasher.. and I LOVE IT! Its like wow.. just stick em in and when its full lock it and turn the knob and poof like magic out comes dishes with the clean-ness. Ronny and I have fought alot this week too. But I'm trying my best to be open and not keep things inside.. Because I dont ever want to see the day where comming home to him is a punishment. But I still cant just like.. say stuff.. I have to like withdraw myself and think it over for any amount of time and then talk about it. Thats really just how I am and I've tried my whole life to change that.. And while Im better now because I actually come to a point to where I can speak up.. I still cant do so without pondering it out. But all in all its going ok.
Today was fun.. Me and Ronny babysat Skylar and Dakota. We went to the beach and got burnt a lil bit.. Then we watched the kids play at Tom Renick Park for a lil bit. I love that park.. cause theres a potty and a shower.. So you can play at the beach and then rinse off the beach so that you dont have to take it home with you. After that we came home and watched some cartoon network and then it was time for the kiddies to go home. Ronny headed off for work.. And at first I was sad cause I was all alone.. But then I was glad cause I got so much done ^___^ I swept and wet mopped the kitchen, I vacuumed, I did laundry,I did dishes,I moved some stuff around, I put all the stuff that was outta place away, I fixed the desktop fountain, I cleaned up my room, I copied some of Dads DVD's, So I feel rather accomplished at the moment. My parents found the entertainment stand that I wanted in my room and bought it So I gotta get that tomorrow and pay them back.. I was really happy when I heard that cause I had been trying to find it ALL FUGGIN WEEK. And tomorrow Im goin to the flea market to get that spinny tupperware thingy. I forgot the name but like all the lids fit all the containers and it sits on a spinning thing. I really wish I knew what to get my sister. Her birthdays today and she's 18 and she hates everything. All shes told anyone is to just give her money. But I hate doing that cause its so impersonal and gay. But that looks like what I'm going to have to do.
I guess thats about it.. one of these days imma find the disk to instal one of my three digital cameras and put some pictures up of the apartment so everyone can be jealous of my coolness.